I am a size 18-20. I enjoy being this size. I have a KILLER wardrobe, that I LOVE. My tag line - "I have GREAT curves and I KNOW how to wear them" - is based around finding my style, truly embracing my curves and then going for it!
Recently, when talking with online retailer, SimplyBe about reviewing their clothes, I decided to re-take my measurements to double check and ensure my size was right. I had lost 1-2 inches off my boobs (2 inches), hips and waist (1 inch each). My FIRST thought was, "Well, that CAN'T be right". So I checked 17 more times. Seriously. And then I was confused. And conflicted.
I am a fat girl who lives a pretty healthy lifestyle. I exercise regularly and eat very healthy foods. Sometimes, but not too often, I drink beer or red wine or coke. I LOVE them. My true vice is caffeine. I am comfortable in my skin and with my size and I am happy. I don't own scales, which is also a GREAT choice... but losing a couple of inches confused me. I don't mind and I know it's probably just my body shape changing a little (I seem to have already found my natural weight a few years go), but this didn't feel like a great thing and to be honest, it made me worry that my clothes may not fit the same. I have been the same weight and shape for a many years now and I like it here. I wonder what may happen next. Hopefully my body will settle with it's inch changing and I will stay in the same size range... because I really do mean it - I LIKE it here.
This is one of my favourite dresses - I wore it on Saturday in the London sun and it made me happy. It is a little bit looser in the bust and waist, but still smashing. This dress has been a love of mine for a very long time and is one of the few pieces I own which predominantly features white.
It is made from Sateen, came with a thin belt and also has lovely thick straps. I love my Paparazzi glasses too - purchased in LA - and I think they work perfectly with this outfit...
I don't wish I was thinner. I only ever want to feel healthy and happy with myself. I feel that way now. But this loss of inches has thrown a little spanner in the works. Time for some reflection maybe as I wait to see if my body settles.
Fingers Crossed... because seriously, I LOVE my clothes, look, self and BODY - just as they are.
Thanks for reading.
Smooch - Em. x.